Dingbei Hou's doctor brother

Chapter 196 Bare your heart

"You..." Lu Ziqing frowned slightly, "So, you heard everything I said beside your bed?"

He thought everything he did was so seamless, but he didn't expect that he was actually a clown.

The embarrassment and shame seemed to grow exponentially, making him even more embarrassed for a moment.

Although Lu Ziqing's life was miserable, the inferiority complex ingrained in his bones rarely made him ask for help from others. Even if he encountered difficult problems, he would handle them on his own.

Su Chengfeng couldn't stand his habit, and it took him a long time to slowly change him.

Perhaps, that was only in the martial arts world, but when he really came into contact with the powerful and wealthy officials, Lu Ziqing had to lower his posture and beg others for help. For him, this was like trampling on his self-esteem.

He was so ashamed that he wanted to hide away, but Xiao Yan grabbed his shoulders.

"I heard it, very clearly. You have no idea how happy I was then. I didn't need to find any excuses for you to come to the capital with me. So, you don't need to feel any psychological burden at all, and don't always say you owe me anything. You really don't owe me anything at all."

He saw that Lu Ziqing seemed to be still reacting and didn't move, so he hugged him and comforted him slowly.

"Ziqing, you don't have to worry. I know about your shameful past, but I really don't care. I recognize you as a person, and your identity and material possessions have nothing to do with it. If you trust me, you can always open your heart and laugh heartily in front of me without restraint."

"I know you're afraid others will expose your most vulnerable side and look down on you, but do you know how heartbroken I was when I heard those insulting words? Even if I didn't witness it myself, I can imagine the pain you went through in your childhood."

"However, fortunately, God has shown mercy, and your master has granted you a second life. In these turbulent times, you have relied on your own efforts to hone your skills. Navigating the complex and complex officialdom, you were able to avenge your master as you wished, becoming the highly praised judge of the Lu Court. Do you realize how remarkable you are?"

"In my eyes, you, Lu Ziqing, are just as good as anyone else. Tonight, at the banquet, my cousin praised you as a pure and untainted person, and praised me for making a great friend."

"Not only him, but also my father. Everyone in our Xiao family says you are very good. Ziqing, please believe me. Everything I say is true. There is absolutely no falsehood."

The cold wind blew in from the window, but Lu Ziqing didn't feel cold, because Xiao Yan's embrace was too warm, so warm that he was not used to it, as if he could only stay awake by standing in the cold wind.

Calm down for a long time...

He said, "I believe it. My Lord, can you let go? You are holding me too tightly."

Hearing this, Xiao Yan reluctantly let go of him and asked, "Are you feeling better?"

Lu Ziqing seemed to have a smile on his face. "What have I done to deserve such high regard from the Marquis? Where's the wine?"

Seeing his brows relax, Xiao Yan also smiled. He took two bottles of osmanthus wine from the small table outside and sat with him on the bed, looking at the lights outside the windows on both sides.

Lu Ziqing took a sip, and Xiao Yan asked him, "How is it?"

"It's lighter than what my senior sister brews. It's okay for me to drink, but it might be like drinking water for you." Lu Ziqing said.

Xiao Yan took a sip and tasted it. "Hmm, osmanthus-flavored water, not bad."

Seeing that Lu Ziqing was now a little more relaxed, he asked cautiously, "Can you tell me about your childhood?"

Lu Ziqing took another sip of wine and said slowly, "I was raised by my aunt. However, at that time, I didn't know that she was not my biological mother. But I knew that my father and brother didn't like me. As for why they hated me, I don't know."

"Only my father and brother had good food and clothes at home. I could only hide in the corner and watch them. When they were not at home, my mother would give me the food she had left. I often cried in front of her, asking why my father was so partial to my brother. My mother would always hold me in her arms and comfort me, saying that my father just had a bad temper."

"My classmates and teachers always told me I was like a piece of wood and anyone could scold me. Until one day, I saw a gorgeously dressed woman delivering money to my family. Then I realized why our family had suddenly become rich. It was because of the money that woman sent monthly. Sometimes it was a man who came. And only when he saw the money would my father happily praise me and say that I was a child who brought wealth."

"I started paying attention to that woman. One day, I heard my father and mother arguing. They said that it was easy for a brothel woman to make money by sleeping with others, and that she didn't need that little money. I didn't know what a brothel woman was, so I quietly followed her to the building. Only then did I see many men and women hugging each other inside, and I probably knew it was a bad place."

As he spoke, he had already finished most of the wine. He leaned against the wall in a daze, staring into the void and continued talking.

"Later, everyone knew about her being my mother. They all felt disgusted by being around me and called me the son of a whore. One time, I was beaten so hard that I vomited blood. They seemed to be afraid that if I died, it would bring trouble to the authorities, so they carried me back. My father didn't want to call a doctor because the woman didn't send money in time twice, so my mother insisted on asking for one."

"There was no place for me in school, and I couldn't stay at home. I felt wronged at the time, and I didn't know what I had done wrong to deserve the way people around me treated me."

"So, I ran away from home and became a beggar despised by everyone. My seventh birthday was when I was woken up by a stray dog ​​in a garbage dump. My master picked me up and I ate sweet osmanthus meatballs cooked by my senior sister. I loved the taste; it was the sweetest I had ever experienced."

As Lu Ziqing spoke, he became more and more drunk and his head was always unsteady. Xiao Yan moved closer and let him lean on his shoulder to listen to him.

"My master and my sister were so kind. They always had a big smile on their faces and would give me good things first. My sister would make up stories and tell them to me every night. They gave me so much sweetness that I gradually felt less miserable. I started learning to identify herbs with my master, and I traveled a lot to many places and climbed many mountains."

"Master will open a small medicine shop in the city to support his family. Whenever he arrives at a new place, he will open a medicine garden in the nearby mountains. When we are free, we will go into the mountains to collect herbs. If we can't go back at night, we will stay in the medicine hut on the mountain."

"Master said I have talent. I could see patients on my own when I was eleven. That person..."

He said this and suddenly chuckled.

"Those two people were Su Chengfeng and Su Chengyi. They were my first patients. Master took them in. To repay his kindness, Su Chengfeng even went to the mountains to learn martial arts from a master. He also taught me martial arts and archery."

If I'm not mistaken, your disciple has surpassed the master." Xiao Yan said with a smile.

Lu Ziqing half-closed his eyes and smiled, jokingly saying, "Who made me so good at comprehension? But..."

He slightly raised his face to look at Xiao Yan, his eyelids about to close, "Compared to the Marquis... it's still far behind."

With his eyes blurred by drunkenness and his face flushed with alcohol, Xiao Yan felt that he was gentle and adorable at the moment. However, who could know that beneath this calm face, he was hiding so many sad pasts.

Xiao Yan only regretted that he was not born ten years earlier and had not met this person earlier. If that were the case, he would never let this person suffer all that pain.

He gently stroked the half-asleep face and murmured.

"Because I want to find someone, the warmest and kindest person I have ever met in my life. He saved my life. I met him when I was a teenager. In order to find him, I want to work hard to survive and become a better and stronger person."

"Did you find him?" Lu Ziqing replied in a daze.

Xiao Yan hummed, "But he no longer recognizes me. However, I want to start over and let him know me, and give him everything I have."

"Time passes, and things and people have changed." Lu Ziqing murmured, "He doesn't recognize you. Maybe it's just a temporary act of kindness, or maybe he has saved so many people that he doesn't need you to repay him."